Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Its almost January. And on January 16th, my brother leaves. He will be headed to Afghanistan for a year. He is supposed to be able to come home for 2 weeks in the middle of his deployment, but that could change. I don't know what I should say or do, I don't know if there are things that I shouldn't say or do. I don't want to make things harder for him, but at the same time, I don't want him to think I don't care. Mom will be a wreck. She will constantly be worrying about him. How could she not. Its what mothers do. I will do what I can to be here for her. I can't imagine what could be going through his head as he prepares to leave for such a scary place. He will never tell anyone if he is scared. He isn't like that. I am scared for him. How could I not be? All I can do is offer any support to him, give him a hug and an "I love you" as he leaves. Then, pray. For his safety, and for the safety of the ones he is with. I don't want him to know how worried I am or how helpless I feel. I guess part of me feels like I should be doing more. I just don't know what else there is to do. If I were in his shoes, I would be scared, but I wouldn't let anyone know. Maybe that's what he is doing. He isn't sure of the types of communication he will have access to. I hope something is available to him, and I hope it is easy for him to do. Being able to talk to people from home would help me. Maybe that's not true for everyone. I don't know. Like I said, I kind of feel like there is something I could do. But there probably isn't. Is there?
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
So this next year will be interesting. For Ryan, spring work will start, then wheat. In August we are taking a family vacation, that I cannot wait for! Once we get back from vacation, Dylan will start preschool. He is growing so fast. Then the fall work will start up for Ryan. After that, we will be back to where we are now. I wonder if next year will go by as fast as this one did...
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Friday started out on a bad note. I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed, and things snowballed that morning. I just had so much stuff to do, things got to me more than they should have. Anyway, it evened out later in the day. No big deal. Most of it was me. But I finally got through my "to do list" for the day.
Saturday was nice. We woke up, I fed Ethan, and we got ready to get Dylan up. I thought he would be excited to see the gifts under the tree, but it was more of a "whatever" reaction. So we ate breakfast, then did gifts. I made cinnamon rolls from scratch for all of us to enjoy that morning. We let Dylan open his gifts first, and kept Ethan separate. Dylan got a truck/livestock trailer combo, a kids digital camera, animals for the truck, and a bath toy from us. Then Santa brought him exactly what he wanted...a Chia pet. A Spongebob Chia pet. He was extremely excited to get it. Then we tried to have Ethan open his gift. He wasn't interested. We only got him one toy, and then a bath toy like Dylans, because we really didn't know what else to get. Between the 2 of them there is enough for Ethan to play with. Anyway, he wasn't all that interested. That held true for the rest of the weekend too. After the boys were done, Ryan and I opened ours. After gifts, Ethan went down for a nap, and Dylan was able to play with all of his toys. He loved the camera, once Daddy showed him how to use it. Once Ethan woke from his nap, we all left to go to Ryan's parents. We had a nice lunch and received nice gifts. It was nice to sit and talk with everyone too. Again, Ethan didn't care about the gifts. Dylan loved the Thomas the Train toys he got. That evening we were all pretty tired. Ryan helped me get a few things done before Sunday.
Sunday morning I got up early to stick the ham in the oven, then laid down on the couch in hopes of getting a couple more hours of sleep. Once the boys woke up, I started working on the rest of the meal for lunch that day. Mom came over to help, thankfully. We got everything ready in time, and everything turned out great. The food was great and much more than we needed. That day, mom's side of the family was coming here. It had been so windy, and was snowing off and on, and mom said the roads were a mess from the drifting snow. I was so surprised when everyone showed up that day! I was so happy that they all made it. The kids played so good together. They tore through their gifts in no time, and then went back to playing hide and seek. After everyone left, mom and Kyle (my brother) stuck around so we could exchange gifts. Ryan and I were so tired that evening.
Like I said it was a busy weekend, but it was great. I really enjoyed it. Its not often you get to see so much family all in one weekend. Got up and took Dylan to school. He was excited. I think I am having another episode of vertigo. Sunday morning I had one dizzy spell while I was sleeping. Then again this morning dizziness woke me up. Since then, it comes and goes. If I turn my head to fast, or lean over, or even tilt my head, I get dizzy and feel like I am on a boat. Who knows how long it will last. If it doesn't get worse, then it will be manageable.
As you can see there are no pictures. I took over 300 this weekend. It will take time to get through all of them. So hopefully sometime this week I will get some Christmas pictures up.
It is so hard to believe that this year is almost over. Its also hard to belive that Dylan is 4 and Ethan is soon to be 1. My babies are no babies anymore. Ethan had a molar pop through last week and is now working on one on the opposite side. Both on the top. He is doing well with them so far.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
I have a lot of things to get done this week. I didn't get anything done but getting groceries today. Ethan was having one of his days. He only slept 1 hour the whole day. So he was tired and clingy. I hope to have a better day tomorrow, so I can get started. I want to get things around here straightened a bit, and move some toys around, before I start baking and prep cooking later in the week. I've got a couple of things I want to make for Christmas dinner at Ryan's parents and then I want to get a few things done ahead of time before the big meal I cook on Sunday. Supposedly on Friday we are getting a decent amount of snow. Right now they are calling for 3 to 5 inches of snow. I am hoping they are wrong and we don't get near that much. I want the weekend to go as planned. I am looking forward to it all so much. I have been looking forward to the Christmas dinners.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Friday we have a birthday party to go to, and Saturday the Christmas dinner at the firehouse. Sunday Ryan works. Here are a few pictures from the Santa visit!
Thursday, December 9, 2010
No huge plans for the weekend. Grandparents are coming to see the boys. And I think on Sunday we are supposed to get a bunch of snow. Although I guess they aren't sure whats going to happen yet. We'll see!
Sunday, December 5, 2010
The rest of the weekend we just sat at home. Ryan had a meeting at the fire department Saturday morning. While Ethan was taking his first nap that day, Dylan and I were on the computer looking at anything and everything that had to do with Santa. For some reason Dylan had Santa on the brain. I asked Dylan if he knew where Santa lived and he said "Yeah, at the firehouse." The local fire department always has Santa one night in December for all of the kids to come and see. So that is the only place (other than tv and books) that Dylan has seen Santa. It was just so funny. I asked him what he was going to ask Santa for and he said "A new bear and a big rock." He is so funny!
Saturday night we did get our Christmas tree up. I bugged Ryan all day, and he finally brought it up that evening and put it up for me. I think I have the branches where I want them, so I went ahead and put all of the decorations on it. I think I am happy with it. We also have baby gates surrounding it so that Ethan doesn't pull on it. Honestly though, Dylan is just as bad. He knows he isn't supposed to, but that doesn't mean that he wont touch it. He knows when I am distracted, and that's when he does things he isn't supposed to. Ryan worked today, so the boys and I just stayed here.
I dread getting up and dragging the boys out in the morning to take Dylan to school and get groceries. It is so cold right now and I can't imagine how cold it will feel in the morning. I shudder just thinking about it! Winter is here. Its not supposed to get out of the 20s all week I don't think. And stay in the teens at night. Yuck!
No plans this week. Staying warm!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Boys are good. Ethan is extra cranky this week. Its getting a bit tiring and frustrating. Dylan spent Saturday night with Ryan's mom and dad. They took him to the parade that I mentioned. He says he liked it. I don't think he has ever been to one, so I am sure he did enjoy it. They kept him until the next evening. I'm sure he really enjoyed the one on one attention. I don't think we have any plans for the weekend. Ryan works one day this weekend, but I'm not sure which day.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
I didn't go out and do any shopping on Black Friday. There just wasn't anything that I wanted that day I guess. Today I got up early and went out with a friend of mine. There was a door buster I wanted to buy, so we had to go early. I was so surprised at the lack of people that were out! I expected crowds everywhere and there just weren't any! We hit so many stores, but I got most of my shopping done. There are still a few people I need stuff for, but it won't take long once I get it all figured out. It was a good day. Ryan stayed home with the boys.
Tonight Ryan's mom and dad came and got Dylan. They planned on going to the local parade that was this evening but its so cold out, I don't know if they ended up going or not. They did take him to dinner and are keeping him all night. That is so good for Dylan to get some one on one attention. I was so thrilled that they wanted to do that with him.
Ethan is something else. Its always something with this kid. I think he is a drama king! He loves to pull up and stand, but he cant seem to get himself back down. So he tends to stand there and scream. Then once you set him back down, it makes him mad, and he cries. He makes me nervous when he is up on his feet. He is so wobbly, but he just keeps going. He holds onto things, and cruises around all of the furniture. I swear he just wants to walk and get it over with. He just isn't able yet. But he tries.
We don't have any plans for the week as usual. I am starting to get antsy and want to put the Christmas tree up. But part of me says "no, it will be a pain keeping Ethan away from it." We have a big baby gate that I plan to put around it, but I guess something is still keeping me from doing it.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Christmas is a month away, and I don't have much figured out. I have an idea for Dylan. I keep hoping they will mark it down a bit though. I have NO idea what to get for Ethan. None. He plays with Dylan's stuff. There is a lot that he cant play with though. I keep hoping to come across some baby toy that looks appealing, but nothing so far. I have one thing for Ryan, but I still need something else in case he doesn't like what I have already. So I have NO Christmas shopping done at all.
Ethan is doing well. He pulls up on everything. It makes me so nervous though. He isn't very coordinated, so when he is standing in front of something I am holding my breath, hoping he doesn't fall and hurt himself. He is back to drooling again. More teeth must be on their way. His eating is hit and miss. As soon as I think he is getting better about it, he starts to refuse. I'm hoping with all of the food tomorrow that he will at least eat well then. Keep trying is all I can do!
Alright...got a crying baby. Happy Thanksgiving!
Friday, November 19, 2010
I got out our video camera yesterday, and there was still a tape in there. I do not video nearly as much as I should. Shame on me. It was all Dylan. So I sat down and watched the tape and it was so much fun. In just over 60 minutes I got to see Dylan grow up. It started when he was around 15 months old, and the last thing I had taped was Christmas when he was 3. It is so sad that I forget what his little voice sounded like, his limited vocabulary and how he used what he knew to tell you what he wanted. Anyway, I really enjoyed watching it. I need to record them more often. I need to get more tapes!
The other day I made breakfast for dinner. I made pancakes, and made them in small batches. Wait, when I say batches it makes it sound like I am making huge amounts. I'm not. I only get 2 or 3 in the pan at a time. So I did 3 batches. The last batch is what Dylan and I ate. The pan temp got away from me a little bit, so in the middle of the pancakes was a bit of burnt. They tasted fine, and it wasn't much so we ate them. But when Dylan saw the burnt on his pancake, we had a conversation. Here it is:
Dylan: I can't eat this pancake. It has dirt on it.
Me: Its fine, just eat it. Its not dirt.
Dylan: What is it then?
Me: Nothing, just eat.
Dylan: But what is it?
Me: Its flavor.
Dylan: Oh! Flavor? Whats flavor?
Me: It makes it taste good.
Dylan: Oh Ok!
He then looks through the rest of his pancake pieces and says "Wow, this one has flavor too! Oh, so does this one?"
He was excited because he got more than one piece with "flavor" on it! Gotta love that kid! It was so funny. I wish you all could've actually heard it.
I almost forgot! Ethan is finally drooling a lot less. Most of the day he can go without a bib now. Since the poor thing was 2 weeks old, he has had to wear a bib, because he drooled so much. I am so happy to be almost done with the bibs!
Be sure to scroll down and look at the pictures from my last post if you haven't seen them yet. I get annoyed when it comes time to upload, because it seems to take forever. So make sure you see my effort.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Like I said, I started out with a longer post, but this is it. Kind of pointless.
Friday, November 12, 2010
This week I also realized that Ethan has outgrown his infant seat in the car. Actually he has probably been too big for it for at least 2 or 3 months. At his 9 month appointment, he was 29.5 inches tall. He will be 10 months in a week. The limit for his seat is 29 inches. Bad mommy! Very very bad! So he will move into Dylan's car seat (rear facing of course) and I ordered Dylan a new seat that will hopefully be the last one we ever buy for him. Eventually it transitions into just a booster seat.
Dylan had a good day at school on Monday. He was happy to go, and left without any trouble. Not much is going on with him.
We don't have much planned for the weekend as usual. Ryan has to work on Sunday. Saturday I hope to go out for the day with a friend. Ryan is supposed to stay home with the boys, so I hope that all holds up. I don't remember the last time I was out with a friend. That sounds so pathetic!
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Yesterday at the grocery, I remembered to grab a box of generic Cheerios in hopes of Ethan eating them. As of now he seems to like them. I read somewhere online to try giving a soft fruit or veggie to them, coated in crushed cheerios, because they may not like the soft or wet feeling of a mushy food. So I will try to give that a shot today. I'm wondering if Ethan has developed some sort of issue with textures. He eats those cheerios, he eats the Gerber puffs, Gerber dried fruit, and the Gerber freeze dried yogurt bites. All are dry and crunchy. Anything soft, and mushy (and good for him) he wont eat. Anyway, we will see how the cheerio coated food works out.
The weather has turned cool. My opinion is that it is just cold. Not winter cold, but cold. Its been windy too, which makes it feel cooler. My nose is cold right now! The living room just doesn't warm well. By the evening its not too bad, thanks to a day of full sun, but the mornings in here are quite cool. I like fall, but I am not ready for winter. This weekend they are calling for highs only in the 40s! I don't like hearing that. That's winter cold. I'm not ready for winter cold.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Saturday, October 23, 2010
I want to get rid of that coffee table. At least for now. I may want it back at a later date, but it has really been annoying me lately. Ryan seems to disagree. I would like to put it in one of the rooms in the barn, but he says it will get ruined. I disagree. Oh well. We'll see what happens.
I cleaned out the drawers in Ethan's dresser. Most of his clothes in there were too small for him. He is tall for his age. All of his clothes up to the 9 month size are gone. He is wearing the 12 month sleepers. So I washed up all of Dylan's old 12 month clothes and put them out for Ethan to wear. Right now though, most of their clothes are not matching up as far as the seasons go. Ethan has enough, but some stuff of Dylan's we will probably never wear, just because it is the wrong season. No plans for the weekend.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
So Saturday we didn't do anything. Sunday we went to that party I mentioned the other day. It turned out to be a really nice day. The weather was great. Dylan enjoyed playing with the kids. It was nice seeing everyone again. We didn't get to stay as long as I would have liked but Ethan started getting cranky because he was sleepy. So we packed up and left. But it was a nice day. We were all pretty tired when we got home. We finally gave Dylan his birthday gift too. He got a lot of nice things. He loves everything.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Saturday is Dylan's birthday. I am making cupcakes today for tomorrow. We aren't doing anything big, but we want to acknowledge his birthday on the actual day. So I will do cupcakes, which he is excited about, we are going to take him to McDonalds. He doesn't eat there very often, so it really excites him when we do. Ryan is going to an opening of a new hog barn locally, and he is going to take Dylan. That will thrill the crap out of Dylan. So he should have a good day. We got him 2 gifts for his birthday. We will give him one tomorrow and keep the other until we get together with some family later. I think I am going to give him his wheelbarrow tomorrow, which means that I will have to put it together sometime today during his nap or after he goes to bed tonight.
I have been fighting with my sinuses these last couple of days. Headache that comes and goes and congestion in my nose that comes and goes. When the congestion goes away, it leaves me with a sore throat. Blah. The weather changed a bit in the last few days, so that's what I am blaming it on.
Sunday we are going to meet up with my mom's side of the family for a combo birthday party. My cousins little girl, and Dylan. Their birthdays are fairly close, so it will work out well.
The boys and I ran to town yesterday to get some things I needed and to get a gift for my cousin's little girl. We hit Kmart first. Ethan cried near the whole time. He was fine when we first got there, but it didn't last long. He cried and cried, for no apparent reason really. But I just went on with my shopping. I had to get it done, and he wasn't hurt or hungry, so I let him go. Once we got in the car he stopped. I still had a list of things to get, so we went on to Walmart. He did fine in Walmart. Guess he doesn't like Kmart for some reason! Dylan was excellent that morning. Most of the time I usually stick him in the seat of the cart, because I can go faster, and it easier. Well I stuck Ethan's seat up there instead so I can have the basket empty and made Dylan walk with me. I told him to hold on the side of the cart, and he did, and he was great. I had him put the stuff in the cart, so he enjoyed helping. I was very proud of him. He said shopping was fun.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I can handle things calmly. I do get fired up, trust me, but I can also keep myself calm as long as the other person can do the same. I'm sure that I can handle what I need to in a calm manner. Sadly, I have gotten used to walking on eggshells for some people. I hate doing it, and I really don't think I should have to. Life is hard, sometimes life sucks, and people don't always get along. But to attempt civil living, I can walk on eggshells. One of these days I may get tired of it, and throw my hands in the air in frustration and stop. But for now, I will keep going.
There has been many times through the years when I have wanted to turn away and never look back, in hopes of stopping all of the stress, putting an end to the tears, and sadness. If I were strong enough for that, I could have avoided so much pain. But I can't seem to do that. Guess I am not that strong of a person. At the same time, I can't just let some things go. Sorry.
I am thankful to be married to someone who stands beside me, and supports me when I need it the most. I am thankful that I am married to someone who I can talk to about anything, who I love spending time with, and hate being away from. We can laugh together and hurt together. We can also stand up to one another if we need to knowing that we are safe to disagree, and still love each other the same. I have a whole hearted marriage. Not all marriages are so good, therefore, I am thankful.
I am attempting to address what is bothering me. However it turns out, is on the other person. Not me. None of this should come as a suprise. Its a known issue. Im not blind siding anyone.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Nothing really exciting to report. This weekend Dylan turns 4. Time flies. I'm not sure what we are going to do that day. Sunday we are going to my Aunts and have a get together for both Dylan's birthday and my cousin's daughter. Getting 2 birds with one stone! The weather is supposed to be nice. Other than that we don't have much going on.
I haven't really felt like posting much lately. Sorry about that.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Dylan had a nice day at school. No problems at all. When I picked him up and got him in the car, he told me that someone peed on the floor. I wondered why one teacher was trying to get the kids outside in a hurry. Guess that's why, haha! At least it wasn't Dylan who peed on the floor! Afterwards, I had an issue with the pharmacy down there. People tick me off. Someone didn't do their job right, and then someone else didn't do their job quickly enough. They told me to come back in 20 minutes, so I did. At that point it still wasn't ready, and they told me to give them another 10 minutes or so. I said fine, and just came home. Dylan was whining because he was hungry and Ethan was fussing, because he was getting hungry as well. So now I have to go back down there sometime this week. I am still really ticked about the whole situation.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Dylan's birthday gifts arrived this week. We got him a little John Deere wheelbarrow, and a little LeapFrog writing toy. I have yet to get either one out of the box yet to look at it. I don't want to show him what they are before his birthday. From the looks of the wheelbarrow box it looks like I have to put it together. I can't tell how big it actually is either. That should be fun.