Excitement

The open house went really well last night. Dylan was a little shy, but I expected that. He managed to say his name and age when asked, and that was about it. They welcomed everyone in and allowed all of the kids to freely explore the classroom. Dylan went right for the train table. I think we were there for about an hour. The teacher remembered me from the visit and emails, so that was really reassuring. In July we should get a packet of paperwork to fill out. I feel really good about him going there. There was a good turnout there last night. I am so thankful that I got my application in early. They don't have their date set yet for the first day of class. End of August or beginning of September is what they are thinking about right now. After last night, I am even more excited about him going!

Yesterday evening was a little difficult for me. I knew that I would have to step out of my comfort zone and talk to people. I am a rather shy person. It really does take a lot to get out of my box and open up to people I don't know well or at all. It took a lot for me to go on that preschool visit a couple of months ago. I was in a new place with new people. I had no one to hide behind. Last night, while I didn't approach any other parents, I still managed to carry on a brief conversation with a couple of the teachers and assistants. I was so nervous going in. I survived I guess. This whole preschool thing will force me to step out again. Each parent is asked to co-op at least once a month in their child's classroom. I am not very good with other people's kids. I get nervous for some reason. I don't know how to act. Well at least I FEEL like I don't know how to act. I'm not good at making new friends. Often I keep quiet in a group situation because I don't feel like I have much to offer or anything interesting to add. It all comes down to a lack of self-confidence. I have always been this way. It's just who I am. So when I step out of my box and actually speak, or offer something, then it is pretty big in my book. The moments leading up to an event when I know I have to take a step, are totally nerve racking. Butterflies and all that jazz. Then I tend to get red faced. Well, it feels like my face is getting red. I get warm. There are just so many nerves fluttering around. Once I feel like my face is getting red, I get more and more nervous. It's an odd cycle. It is always such a huge relief when someone else reaches out first. Then I feel like, "ok, they do want me to talk to them." And many of those nerves calm. Even here in the internet world all of that applies. It's not just a face to face thing.

Both boys woke up in good moods today. It doesn't always happen, so I am always thankful when it does. And the sun is out! Yay! It is still cool out, so I guess we can't have it all, but the sun is nice. It makes you feel good to see a clear sky and sun.