Quick update. I nursed Ethan for the last time (hopefully) yesterday around noon. He finally took a bottle that afternoon. He took 3 bottles yesterday and so far 2 today. Yesterday evening he was a different baby. He took an hour nap in the evening which for him in absolutely unheard of. It was wonderful, and made for a fairly pleasant evening. Overall he just seemed more content. I think he was able to get enough to eat finally. Right now it is still breast milk in the bottle. I will slowly introduce the formula. I probably only have a months worth of frozen breast milk. I have tried pumping, but haven't been able to get much. So I will probably only pump for my comfort and slowly dry up. I am not turning back now, and will only feed him through the bottle. I still have guilt over no longer nursing him, but I just can't do it anymore. It hurts and I was miserable, and I really think he wasn't as happy as he should have been.
Dylan went with Ryan again yesterday. He loved it, and it allowed me to focus on getting Ethan to take a bottle. Ryan said Dylan didn't want to come home. He loves being with his dad like that.
Ryan is going to try to start running the wheat today. Hopefully it all goes smoothly and he can get it done in a couple of days.