Is it too early?

Ok, so I have another stupid habit (which I blame on boredom) in the afternoons while Dylan is napping comes on the weekends. Its called QVC. Ryan is working, Dylan is napping, so I am alone with myself. I sometimes find myself watching this shopping channel. Especially the kitchen shows. Anyway, this weekend again Ryan is working, Dylan is asleep. I would love to take a nap, but for some reason, I cant fall asleep. QVC here I come. They are doing "Christmas in July" right now. Everything they have on focuses on Christmas time.
So is it too early to be wanting the holidays to be here? I wish that it were Thanksgiving time and getting close to Christmas. First of all, the food. Always ready for all the food. But also, the families. Its nice to see everyone and just sit and talk. Usually everyone clears the whole day, so nothing is rushed and it is so nice to have that time. At Christmas time, I really enjoy having everyone here. I enjoy cooking the food and having all my family in one house. Its so nice to watch all of the kids rip open their gifts. It brings back good memories for me as well. Again, no one is rushed and we all just sit and talk. Christmas usually brings us all into one room for the gifts and allows us all to talk. Now, that doesn't happen very often. There seems to be so many of us anymore, its hard to get everyone together, let alone in one room! I just hope that this year, I won't be too uncomfy in the end of my pregnancy to have everyone here. I will do whatever I can to have them all down here. Its just so nice to invite them all here.
And since I mentioned it, Thanksgiving and Christmas time means that the baby will be here soon. And that in itself is enough to wish for the holidays!
I could do without the snow and ice that usually comes with that time of year.

So far I'm not feeling too bad today. Big difference from the last few days. Dylan and I ran some errands this morning. I am so thankful that it is cool outside and will stay cool for at least another week. I could not handle this morning sickness and the 90 degree weather. I am so glad it has been a cool month. Keep them coming!
Well it happened last time I was pregnant and it is happening again. In the afternoons now when Dylan is napping, I have a bad habit of watching baby shows on TLC or Discovery Health. Shows like "A Baby Story" or "Birth Day", and there is another one but I can't think of the name! I cant stand watching them when I am not pregnant, but when I am, I really enjoy them. Really don't know why that is, but oh well!
We have nothing planned for this weekend. Ryan works both days, which will make for a boring weekend. I hate when he works both days, but its hard to turn down overtime. We need all we can get while its available.
Wow, nothing really exciting to tell...big suprise!

We had a good weekend for the most part! Friday I wasn't feeling well, but I made it through. Saturday we went to a family reunion with Ryan's mom's family. It went well. That morning Dylan woke up not feeling well. We still don't know what was wrong with him. He never would say. Anyway, it was almost like he may have had a migraine. But we really don't know. So we went to the reunion, it was nice. We didn't know a lot of people, but that's to be expected I think. Dylan got to see his mamaw and papaw, so that's always nice. Afterwards the plan was for us to take Dylan to mom's so he could spend the night there and Ryan and I had tickets for the Nascar truck race in Kentucky so we were going to go there. Well, we left the reunion later than expected and with Dylan not 100% we really didn't want to be all the way in Kentucky. But after the reunion we just didn't really have to time to get all the way down to the track. So Dylan still stayed with mom and Ryan and I ended up back in Wilmington just running some errands and having dinner.
Dinner by the way was NOT very good at all! We went to Damon's because we had a coupon for one free dinner. We weren't all that hungry so we just ordered burgers. Mine was a little over cooked, and both of our side dishes were way too salty! The waiter was a spaz too. We tried to make the best of it. We took our time and played trivia. But it was nice to get out together. Dylan did great with mom. Somehow he even convinced her to go to walmart. He got some new blocks out of the deal. When I picked him up the morn we ran to the outlet mall in hopes of me getting some maternity clothes. We only got to one store before Dylan had a meltdown. I did get a couple of shirts. I hate buying clothes! They cost too much!!! After that we came home and ended our weekend!

Today was my doctors appointment. It went well. I was not feeling well at all this morning. I started of staring at the toilet! Anyway, made it to the doctors. Today was the first time hearing the heartbeat. Basically it took forever to find the heartbeat, and I was panicked for a bit. The doctor told me while she was looking for the heartbeat that if she couldn't find it soon they would do an ultrasound. Thankfully she found it, and it was good. The little one's heartbeat averaged 140. All in all I was told things look good. I told the doctor that I was paranoid and worried this time around, and she kind of laughed and said "its not ignorant bliss this time around is it?" Hearing the heartbeat relaxed me a bit. I was given another med for the morning sickness. I have only taken my second dose, so no idea on how it will work yet. I have to watch my weight for a while too. If I loose much more before my next appt, then I need to go back for more drastic measures. So I will do my best to prevent that. Overall, I am happy with the appointment. Like I said, I am relieved to hear the heartbeat. It will be September when we get our ultrasound! Hopefully then we will know if it is a boy or girl.
Oh, on that note, the nurse today when she was looking for the heartbeat, she kept referring to the baby as "he." Ryan told her not to say that because its a girl! I keep telling him otherwise and he isn't listening, ha ha!

Today was another rough day. Sick for almost the whole day. Did I mention that I made it through the first trimester?? This weekend was the end of the first trimester. Only 2 more long trimesters go.
Thursday I go back to the doctors. We will get to hear the heartbeat this time, finally. I hate waiting this long to get confirmation that things are going ok. I only get 1 ultrasound too. I wish they would check to make sure things are ok sooner than now. Some practices (although none around here) will give multiple ultrasounds to check heartbeats or development. I wish I had that security earlier. I don't know why it is bothering me so much this time around. With Dylan I was anxious, but it didn't really bother me that we have to wait so long, but this time it is. If they would have just added an earlier ultrasound then I would have been happy.

First things first. I am so tired and frustrated with being sick every single day. The frustration of all of this is really getting to me. 24/7 it feels like I am going to puke. I can barely function most days. I am just so tired of this. I just feel like sitting down and crying my eyes out. Its stressful.

Ok, now on the other things. Nothing new around here at all. Like I said I can barely function so nothing is happening.
I was having a conversation with mom the other day about the sex of the baby. I am 13 weeks along now, so I could be anywhere from 4-8 weeks away from finding out if it is a boy or a girl. I got out the name book we have and was going over my list of boy and girl names. I have a decent list for each. A couple of favorites for each as well. Now Ryan on the other hand only has a list of girl names so far. That seems to be the only thing on his mind. Girl names. He really would like to have a girl, so honestly, I don't think he has put much thought into boy names. I told him he needs to! I feel like this will be a boy as well. With Dylan I had no feeling one way or the other. I don't know why I feel like this will be a boy, I just do. Ryan says I will jinx it and make it a boy if I keep referring to the baby as 'he' or 'him'.
So which would I like to have this time around? No clue. If we were to have another boy, great, we already have all the clothes we need, we wont have to buy anything other than diapers and wipes. If we were to have a girl this time around, then great. It will be a new experience all around. But, just one thing. I am scared to raise a girl. Boys seem to have things easier growing up. School life especially seems easier for boys. Girls are cruel to one another. Clothes, social status, cliques, and looks in general just seem to be more important to girls growing up than boys. Boys seem to make friends easier. I'm not a girly girl, never was. I'm afraid that I wouldn't be able to be a girly mom. I don't fix hair, I probably couldn't braid to save my life, and I hate pink. I know nothing about fashion. I buy my clothes as cheap as possible and plain. I'm afraid I wouldn't dress her well enough, fix her hair right, or do the things she needs to make enough friends. There just seem to be so many scary things or situations that come along with trying to properly raise a girl, and I doubt myself a lot in that area. Yet even with all of those fears, I would still like to try. So I guess there are pros and cons to either one, and I am so glad that WE aren't the ones who decide boy or girl. I am so glad that it is out of our hands. I could never make that decision myself.
Soon we will know one way or another (hopefully). We havent really talked about it, but I imagine we will do things the same this time around. Tell everyone the sex of the little one, but keep the name quiet until he or she is born.

I hate to complain even more, but it's going to happen. So Saturday night, late I started feeling pretty bad, and started to lose my voice. Just figured it was the weather as we were outside all evening. Sunday, no better. Woke up in the middle of the night with horrible ear pain. With the ear pain I decided to go to my family doctor. Turns out, I have a sinus infection as well as an ear infection. Great. I am still miserable today. I have partial hearing because I am so clogged up in my face. And my face just hurts. I can't get the stuff to move out. Doc gave me a RX for an antibiotic, and told me to take it only if its not getting any better since there is a slight risk (very slight) to the baby. Also told me to get the final ok from my OB before I take the med. So since I'm not doing any better today, I call the OB office to get the ok. Now keep in mind all I need from that office is a 'yes' or a 'no' and nothing more. Its now 9pm, the office is closed and they haven't called me back! I'm so frustrated! And now, if they do manage to call me back tomorrow, then I won't be able to fill that RX. Ryan will have to try to do it while he is at work tomorrow if he has time, because my car is out of commission for a couple of days. No car means no driving to the pharmacy. I am so mad at that frickin office for not returning my phone call!
So yes I am complaining yet again, but I think in this case I am allowed. Morning sickness, and now this stupid infection in my head. GRR!!!
I wish I had something more interesting to talk about, but nooooooo

Well Dylan made it through the Reds game. Ryan said he did very well. They had most of the row to themselves so he was able to move around. They also walked around the stadium a bit. Im glad that he did so well. He was wound up when they got home!

When I woke up this morning I thought I may be past the sickness. I felt well, but still had no appetite. Well now that I ate lunch, I don't feel so great. So I guess I'm not over it yet. Last night I was actually able to make a decent dinner. My first trimester is over on July 11th I think so, I should start feeling better around then, I hope!
I finally popped though the other day. I think I can safely say its not bloat anymore. Its a little earlier this time around than it was with Dylan, but I expected it to happen earlier. With the extra weight I have been carrying since Dylan didn't help matters. The insides are pushing against the fat on my gut so thats probably why I am showing earlier. I will probably "look" further along than I really am during this whole pregnancy.
I am so glad the weather has been cooler. I know that is helping me feel at least a little better. Tomorrow Ryan is going to that Reds game. He is still planning on taking Dylan, so that will be a nice break for me!