Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Dylan went with Ryan again yesterday. He loved it, and it allowed me to focus on getting Ethan to take a bottle. Ryan said Dylan didn't want to come home. He loves being with his dad like that.
Ryan is going to try to start running the wheat today. Hopefully it all goes smoothly and he can get it done in a couple of days.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Dylan had a good day at school. He only protested a little bit when I went to get him, so that was a welcomed change. The weather is finally cooler. It is absolutely wonderful. We didn't do anything over the weekend.
So I go to the grocery store every Monday morning while Dylan is in school. Its easier to just deal with one kid at the store rather than 2. Anyway, I go at the same time, every Monday, so the same people are always working, always say hi and all that. Well there is this one girl who bags the groceries every morning. She can't be that far out of high school. She looks pretty young. Almost every Monday she makes comments about Ethan still wearing those mittens that keep newborns from scratching their faces. Yes when in his seat, I still put those on Ethan so he doesn't rub his face off, or scratch at his neck. But she always make those comments, and to be honest I find it extremely annoying. So this Monday, I bought some more breast pads to go in my bra to keep my bra dry from leaks. Well that prompted her to make a comment on breastfeeding. She asked how old Ethan was, so I told her. Then she goes on to say "Oh, so you have a long way to go before you can stop breastfeeding then don't you?" At that point I must have shot her a look that said "excuse me?" She kind of took a step back and said "well that's what I hear, you have to breastfeed them for a year don't you?" I said no you don't have to breastfeed at all. Its just a personal preference. She then goes on to say "well it must work because my sister did it for a year and her daughter is a lot smarter than my nephew." Really then, I didn't know what to say. Thankfully she was done bagging my groceries so I was free to leave. I just said, well each kid is different. This girl has no kids, I do know that for a fact. And here she is preaching to a stranger on something she has never experienced for herself. It annoyed me quite a bit. But I'm not one for confrontation, so I didn't go on and say much more. I don't know why but it kind of struck a nerve. I guess I don't think its right to go preaching to someone about what they do with their kids. Especially on something as sensitive as breastfeeding or formula feeding. Like I said though, this chick has annoyed me before, so that's probably why it got to me.
So yeah thats all from me.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
We went outside for a little while this evening. Still very hot. Even though Dylan loves the outside, I think it was too hot for him. He didn't last long before he was ready to come back in. The sweat was dripping down his face. So we came back in and I got both boys bathed. Ethan wants to be asleep right now, but no matter what I do he won't stay asleep for more than 10 minutes. Evenings are hard. He always fusses and ends up in a meltdown. Last nights consisted of him crying for near 45 mins. Nothing I did worked. He just eventually quit. It was rough on me. Its only a matter of time before he starts tonight's meltdown. Really it never fails. Anyway, just wanted to post a bottle update. No luck!
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Not much else going on really. No new teeth yet with Ethan. Nothing planned for the weekend. I am probably still going to be working on getting Ethan to accept a bottle, so I don't really plan on going anywhere. If I want to stop nursing, he has to take one. So that is my priority for the time being. Ryan is off this weekend, as of now, thankfully.
Hmmm. Still negative isn't it!?
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Ethan in these last few days, has been beyond grumpy. I think he may be working on more teeth. I haven't seen signs of more poking through, but that doesn't mean he isn't in pain. I give him tylenol off and on, and when he has a dose, it seems to help for a short while. In a month or so he will be old enough for ibuprofen. That stuff works ten times better than tylenol.
I am starting to really dislike breastfeeding. I feel unbelievably guilty for feeling this way. Ethan is not easy to feed though. He tugs, jerks, pinches, is off and on, wiggles, and squirms. No matter how hungry he is, he is doing something that makes it unpleasant. He goes through phases where he really really hurts me. I get a very intense burning pain during and after. I dread nursing him. It feels so wrong to even say that, but that's what I feel. The guilt from feeling that way eats away at me. I feel wrong for saying this but, if formula weren't so expensive, I think I would switch. I keep telling myself, that I can stop in January once he turns a year old. That's my goal at least. But its hard. January is a while away. I would just pump and feed him through a bottle, but I can't get anything from the breast pump. I'm afraid that if I tried to switch from nursing, to pumping, that my supply would not be maintained, and I would have to buy formula. I just don't respond well to the breast pump. I feel so guilty for wanting to stop nursing. I'm not saying that I am going to stop, just that I would like to. The pain, the frustration gets to me after a while. I love him so much, I just want whats best for him.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Dylan had a good day at school today. He didn't fight me too much when it was time to leave. I did have to carry him out though.
Tried to give Ethan some more rice cereal today. No luck. So far he doesn't like it. I will keep trying. Today was only the second day of trying. If he doesn't like it then no big deal, I will just move on to something else. Dylan didn't care for it either. Once we moved on to the other foods, he was happy. Hopefully Ethan will do the same.
I am tired today. Ethan was up at 6. He gets to nap though. Mommy doesn't.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Hmmm where to start. Yesterday mom had Dylan. She had kept him overnight, so I went back to pick him up. On our way home, we ran to town to try to find a swing. I have been wanting an infant swing to add to Dylan's play set so that while we are out there I can put Ethan in it. But I am having no luck. I certainly don't want to buy one online and pay all of the shipping costs. So we headed home after a wasted detour. My brother called and wanted to stop out and see the boys. He stayed for a while and was able to spend time with both of them. Dylan started getting tired, and was acting horribly, so I put him down for his nap. Ethan also took a decent nap for once. He and I had got up for the day at around 7:30 and he only had a 10 minute nap in the car. When he went down for his nap it was almost 1pm. Poor kid was tired. He napped for almost 3 hours. In Ethan's world, that is unheard of. But it was nice.
So the evening hits and everyone is awake. I had Ethan in his bouncy chair and was going to go get Dylan up from his nap. I handed Ethan a toy to play with and started to leave. Well, he started shrieking. I went back to him to see what was wrong, and noticed at that point that he had his front bottom 2 teeth pop through!!! I really had no idea anything was close to coming through. He hasn't had any white spots on his gums, and of course, he has always been a drooler, so I was surprised to see these teeth. Maybe that's what he was doing for almost 3 hours during his nap! He is growing so fast! He is 5 months old today as well!
Then at some point yesterday evening, Dylan pooped in the potty, 2 times. Very little each time, but I was happy that he recognized that he had to go and actually did it. When he was done, he remembered from a long time ago, that I had bought that small car to give him once he pooped in the potty. So he asked for it, and I went ahead and gave it to him. Now, he still pooped in his diaper overnight. But really at night I don't think he can control it. As long as he is relaxed and comfortable, I think it just happens. While I am not going to get my hopes up too high, it would be nice if him actually pooping in the potty last night was a turning point. I hope I can get him to do it again today. If he does it during his nap though, I know I won't be able to get him to do it in the potty.
So that was our day yesterday. I'm feeling that I left something out, but I am drawing a blank. Oh well.
Here are a couple of pictures of the boys. The first one is Dylan at 5 1/2 months, and the second is Ethan at 5 months. Ethan was wearing one of Dylan's old onsie, so I thought I would take a picture of him in it too.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Took Dylan to school. He did well. He didn't want to leave though. I almost had to carry him out of there, but he finally walked.
Going to lunch one day this week with a friend I used to work with. We haven't seen each other since 2009 I believe. I am taking Dylan to mom's and he is going to stay a night with her. He will be thrilled. It will also be nice to get out and have some adult conversation! WooHOO.
Just a quick post. Its time for Dylan to get up from his nap, and Ethan seems to be demanding to be entertained. I need to post pictures. Its been a while. Soon, maybe!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Ethan's naps are still all over the place. The radio doesn't seem to make a difference one way or another. After breakfast the boys and I ran to town for a quick Walmart trip. From 7:30 this morning until 11:30 Ethan only slept 10 minutes while we were in the store. He then took a quick nap after lunch. He's napping again now. He seems so tired.
Nothing big this weekend. A friend of mine is having a birthday party for her boy turning 2. So we will go there Saturday evening. Sunday Ryan works.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Dylan had a good weekend. He got to spend time with his grandparents. Ryan and I didn't do too much. Relaxed a little.
I know there's more, but I don't have much time right now!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
But like I said, nothing new, just keeping everyone happy. Both of the boys are well. Ethan is touch and go with his naps lately. Who knows why. I'm just going with the flow. He is sleeping decently at night for the most part, but naps are iffy.
Its been so humid out lately. If I am going to take this humid crap, I need to be within 1 mile of an ocean. And in case you didn't know, I am not. I want to be at the ocean. I was bored the other day, both boys were napping. So I got online and started looking at beach houses in South Carolina. If I had an extra 1.3 million, then I could have a nice large oceanfront house with a private pool. But if I wanted to save a little, then I could sacrifice a few bedrooms and only spend 700,000. If only I had the winning lotto numbers! I miss the ocean.
This post is just a bunch of rambling!!! Sorry!